EON-NA; kamera lomo pertama aku, bole bawak masuk dalam air! seronok main snap entah paper, tapi banyak jugak rosak sebab gelap. mentah lagi!

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got my new lomo cam few days ago. bila entah, aku pon dah tak ingat dah. dah beli filem siap2, so boleh terus snap! weeeeeee~~~

dah cuci filem semua tu, usha la sekeping2 gambar2 yang aku snap. hmmm...ada yang cantik! ada yang REJECT! hampeh, gambar gelap sebab tak cukup cahaya. terlupa yang filem tu untuk outdoor yang mane sufficient light are available. haha, my mistakes!

anyway, kat bawah ni ada la sikit2 gambar yang aku rasa ok. nak tengok lagi sila usha FB. thanks!

p/s: c&c are most welcome :)

kalau dia senang, tak semestinya aku susah. dan kalau aku susah, tak semestinya dia yang senang.

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waktu mula-mula berkemas nak masuk UTP dulu rasanya buat dalam keadaan tergesa-gesa. dapat tahu layak masuk agak lewat dan keputusan nak masuk memang tak perlu dijangka sebab memang dah target nak masuk UTP.

sekarang cuti semestar aku balik rumah, mak yang pening nak fikir bawa itu ini untuk si bongsu. seingat aku waktu aku nak masuk UTP dulu takde lah sampai macam tu. persiap yang mudah saja.

hmmmm... yerlah, betul ada sedikit cemburu. barangkali kerana rasa kurang perhatian. waktu keputusan diumumkan pun dia dapat lebih. haih, parah juga ni.

membesar dengan kepala otak fikir kene selesaikan semua dengan usaha sendiri, jangan susahkan orang lain. mungkin  di situ hilang rasa kebergantungan dengan mak. lepas tu kalau mak tanya dah siap ke belum, ok ke tidak, jawapan semua OK!

dah tua-tua macam ni baru rasa cemburu. agaknya apa jadi kalau umur cecah angka 50? haha

p/s: memang dah slalu kene pon. kalu ngan member abaikan aje, tp kalau macam ni simpan aje lah nmpknyer. hmmmm

if you like nature, you dont have to go far. we often see but not look. stop seeing and start looking. you'll be amaze of what you have just near by

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sejak dulu aku memang sukakan alam semula jadi. hijau itu mendamaikan. tenang riak air itu membawa seribu erti ketenangan. meski pun bising kicau burung dan deruan air, riuh rendah itu membangkitkan satu perasaan nyaman dan tenang.

dan sesungguhnya kalau kat utp ni kita sebenarnya dekat dengan alam semula jadi. ada tasik mahupun tasik buatan, penuh dengan hidupan lain. satu hari aku jalan jalan kat tasik sambil bawa si Bujang, bersedia untuk menembak!

ini hasilnya. semoga keindahan yang aku rasa, korang dapat rasa :)

terima kasih!

p/s: bismillahirahmanirahim, mari mula stadi :p

bersyukur kerana masih bernafas. bersyukur diberi peluang merasa pedihnya hidup dan bahagianya senyuman. syukran ya Rab!

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"seeing is deceiving, dreaming is believing

its ok not to be ok

sometimes it hard to follow your heart

but tears dont mean you're losing, everybody's bruising

just be true with who you are"

who you are

-Jessie J-

I never thought I would be very happy being celebrated for it. the first time I felt the ease from all. and yes, one of the best thing I had. thanks for wishing me, I'll be wishing you the same. :)

with things happening around me, things change. even myself. no doubt. one thing for sure, I dont think love as it was before. trust me, I dont even think that I'm actually will be in that position.

I'd like to live for my family, work hard for my dreams, laugh like a child, cry like a baby and fly like an eagle. I'll go with the flow as long as it's in my path. I'll accept the good and bad, cherish the joy along the way.

after all, I cant be greed and ask for more, can I?

 

p/s: dont go over there, i'll lose a friend.

jangan datang lagi. ingat saja sudah cukup pedih. pergi jauh dan jangan pernah datang lagi.

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pukul 1.30 pagi, bukak cerita pasal intern lagi. memang bukan cerita favorite tapi nak buat macam mana, dah jadi satu coretan yang tak boleh padam.

lepas habis intern, tak ada semangat nak buat kerja. kerja TTS pun, secara jujur. apa-apa kerja lah! hanya ada semangat untuk melepak bersama rakan2 tercinta. dan aku benci kalau rase ditinggalkan. malang sungguh semesta ni kalau aku yang ajak mesti kene reject. sedih betul. macam putus cinta pulak.

and yes, i'm losing the sense of enjoying things i'm doing. sedih untuk diri sendiri, sebab yang aku fikir adalah perfection, perfection dan perfection. last skali rasa sedih sebab tak perfect. haih, miss my oldself.

i've said once, intern has drained all good things in me. takde lah semua, but those value who makes me enjoyable dah hilang. aku cuma boleh enjoy bila melepak, bila buat sesuatu dengan tujuan nak main-main. but never in work. kalau masuk bab kerja, serious, serious and SERIOUS!

past is the past. i got it. tapi macam paku yang dah dipakukan atas kayu, kesan paku tu takkan hilang bila kita cabut paku tu. and trust me, i'm trying hard not to remember back those hard times. 

it hit me hard, really hard bila ayie tanya "enjoy tak?" waktu mahkamah lorong dulu. rasa tersentap sebab aku lupa value tu. there's no satisfaction if you dont enjoy what you are doing. and it's a big lost for me.

rasa kosong walaupun dah cuba push diri sendiri untuk buat yang terbaik. i'm holding back. kosong. betul-betul kosong!   

i hate myself for that. i really miss my old mischievousness sloppy girl i was once. i miss her.

and yes, i blame you for it.

"and dont you know im not your ghost anymore

you lost the love i loved the most

i learn to live half a life and now you want me want more time

dont come back for me, dont come back at all"

Jar of Hearts

-Christina Perri-

p/s: aku tahu sapa aku, so i wont be hoping, at least you wont know

tembak di luar jendela

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sekian terima kasih!

just how many time i've been in that situation. frustrating. but this time, i'll let it go first. thank you for the good times. wish you were here. -brownie-

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26 mac 2009, aku turun KL tengok LAT The Muzikal. and yes i'm enjoying myself. snap2 gambar. tapi tak banyak sangat pun. ada lah sikit2

and last but not least, aku dapat teguran dari seseorang. lama aku tunggu. katanya sori, it's all just a big misunderstanding. yer la, bila aku memang selalu jadi mangsa salah faham.

if only you understand apa yang dah jadi, apa yang aku rasa, dan siapa aku, you would not be able to see what kind of marks you've left me with. it wasn't anything to you i guess, but i have to live with it for the rest of my life. feeling stupid just by looking at you.

sampai bilik tengok2 dah longlai. baring tak bergerak. this is must be the feeling my sister once felt. but i can promise it was worse than this. aku mintak maaf, tak sempat nak buat apa2 tidur je terus. pagi pun bangun lewat. maybe to keep it close to me just a little bit longer.

dan ada orang ajak keluar than cancel even went out before telling me it's cancel. nasib baiklah aku memang tak percaya ngan ajakan beliau sebab selalu kene cancel.

frustrating, really.

p/s: i hope u have a good time with me, close ur eyes and rest all u want. love u always.

oh bulan, yang melayan diri ku lagi pabila air mata membasahi pipi. dan lagu-lagu di radio seolah-olah memerli aku pabila kau bersama yang lain

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2 3 malam ni adalah malam dipanggil "supermoon" (kot) sebab bulan nampak besar di langit oleh kerana jaraknya adalah yang paling dekat dengan bumi. malangnya, kalau kat malaysia ni, tak nampaklah kebulatan dan kebesaran bulan tersebut.

dan tadi pada jam 6.30 (agaknya lah) aku terpandang ke luar jendela dan terperasan langit yang cerah dan awan2 di langit yang cantik. apa lagi, snaplah! :)

p/s: buat asemenlah!

tell me because i'm a friend. ask me because i'm your friend.

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aku macam burung, mungkin aku adalah burung. nak terbang bebas, nak tengok dan teliti dunia. tanak terbang di tempat yang sama. nak mengisi yang kosong. nak berkongsi manisnya madu.

i'm a keeper. i keep things close to me.

when something happen and my emotions and thoughts are at stake, i often keep it silence and go crazy. its easier before to be a little bit insane but its getting harder these days. if i get the chance, i'll laugh at smalls things, even if it aint funny. i do things people usually dont. and i specifically, dont follow the rules.

i know things will get better. semua orang tau. and so i dont need those words when i'm dealing with it cause i know that. i dont need the answers of the equations, i hate it when people trying to brake in. i just need to know that there's someone outside, who is willing to stay even when its raining.

sometimes you are wondering what should you do, are you doing enough. guess what, you dont have to.

i may never say this but thanks for all the moments. if you'd know, it helped me getting back on track. and i could promise you, you dont know how much you have done for me.

yes, i'm a keeper. i keep things close to me.

p/s: sinonim dengan sendiri.

si siput

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baru balik dari photoshoot JERIT! untuk nametag. sampai kat tangga v5 tu tiba2 jumper si siput atas tangga. pelik jugak lah macam mane siput nih boleh sampai situ. but anyhow, sebab camera dah di tangan, apa lagi, terus lah snap beberapa keping gambar. =)

selebihnya boleh usha kat FB. 3 keping je pun. haha. klik gambar yer!

trimas

p/s: nak g tgk hot air balloooooon~~~