just how many time i've been in that situation. frustrating. but this time, i'll let it go first. thank you for the good times. wish you were here. -brownie-

Assalamualaikum...

26 mac 2009, aku turun KL tengok LAT The Muzikal. and yes i'm enjoying myself. snap2 gambar. tapi tak banyak sangat pun. ada lah sikit2

and last but not least, aku dapat teguran dari seseorang. lama aku tunggu. katanya sori, it's all just a big misunderstanding. yer la, bila aku memang selalu jadi mangsa salah faham.

if only you understand apa yang dah jadi, apa yang aku rasa, dan siapa aku, you would not be able to see what kind of marks you've left me with. it wasn't anything to you i guess, but i have to live with it for the rest of my life. feeling stupid just by looking at you.

sampai bilik tengok2 dah longlai. baring tak bergerak. this is must be the feeling my sister once felt. but i can promise it was worse than this. aku mintak maaf, tak sempat nak buat apa2 tidur je terus. pagi pun bangun lewat. maybe to keep it close to me just a little bit longer.

dan ada orang ajak keluar than cancel even went out before telling me it's cancel. nasib baiklah aku memang tak percaya ngan ajakan beliau sebab selalu kene cancel.

frustrating, really.

p/s: i hope u have a good time with me, close ur eyes and rest all u want. love u always.

oh bulan, yang melayan diri ku lagi pabila air mata membasahi pipi. dan lagu-lagu di radio seolah-olah memerli aku pabila kau bersama yang lain

Assalamualaikum...

2 3 malam ni adalah malam dipanggil "supermoon" (kot) sebab bulan nampak besar di langit oleh kerana jaraknya adalah yang paling dekat dengan bumi. malangnya, kalau kat malaysia ni, tak nampaklah kebulatan dan kebesaran bulan tersebut.

dan tadi pada jam 6.30 (agaknya lah) aku terpandang ke luar jendela dan terperasan langit yang cerah dan awan2 di langit yang cantik. apa lagi, snaplah! :)

p/s: buat asemenlah!

tell me because i'm a friend. ask me because i'm your friend.

Assalamualaikum...

aku macam burung, mungkin aku adalah burung. nak terbang bebas, nak tengok dan teliti dunia. tanak terbang di tempat yang sama. nak mengisi yang kosong. nak berkongsi manisnya madu.

i'm a keeper. i keep things close to me.

when something happen and my emotions and thoughts are at stake, i often keep it silence and go crazy. its easier before to be a little bit insane but its getting harder these days. if i get the chance, i'll laugh at smalls things, even if it aint funny. i do things people usually dont. and i specifically, dont follow the rules.

i know things will get better. semua orang tau. and so i dont need those words when i'm dealing with it cause i know that. i dont need the answers of the equations, i hate it when people trying to brake in. i just need to know that there's someone outside, who is willing to stay even when its raining.

sometimes you are wondering what should you do, are you doing enough. guess what, you dont have to.

i may never say this but thanks for all the moments. if you'd know, it helped me getting back on track. and i could promise you, you dont know how much you have done for me.

yes, i'm a keeper. i keep things close to me.

p/s: sinonim dengan sendiri.

si siput

Assalamualaikum...

baru balik dari photoshoot JERIT! untuk nametag. sampai kat tangga v5 tu tiba2 jumper si siput atas tangga. pelik jugak lah macam mane siput nih boleh sampai situ. but anyhow, sebab camera dah di tangan, apa lagi, terus lah snap beberapa keping gambar. =)

selebihnya boleh usha kat FB. 3 keping je pun. haha. klik gambar yer!

trimas

p/s: nak g tgk hot air balloooooon~~~

i am confident but i still have my moment. i'm not supermodel i still eat mcdonald. baby, thats just me.

Assalamualaikum...

"your the least needy women i've ever met. that's awesome. i mean no guys gonna who's your daddy to Robbin Scherbatsky, you're your own daddy, and that is what makes you the most amazing, strong, independent woman i've ever bang"

-Barney Stinson-

How I Met Your Mother, Season 6, Episode 6

kalau korang peminat setia series ni, mesti pernah dengarkan dialog ni... believe it or not, to a woman like robin, that is one of the sweet things a guy can say.

cikgu aku dulu pernah cakap, nak jadi perempuan ni susah. kenapa? 1st kene tahan period pain, which for some girls sangat teruk sampai tak boleh bangun katil. 2nd kene tahan morning sickness for pregnant woman, i dont know how tapi tu la dier cakap. and 3rd, labor pain.

on top of that, if you put your situation under a woman shoe, and by saying you i meant the boys, imagine if you have to feel the period pain while doing the test, or while sitting in the class hoping it will finish soon.

why are we being emo sometimes? or let me say, the whole time? it's the hormone things. i dont get it too sometimes. and yeah, i do get this mood swing once in a while. but here's the catch, i only get emo with these selected few people. some i know why, some not. haha

anyway the point is, for a woman to be strong perhaps stronger than a men can be, takes a lot of breakdowns. people dont get strong just like that. and let me say this, a women is meant to be weak, so for one to be strong, its just out of courage and hopes. once you have a breakdown, you will take time to get back up on your feet.

i dont know if its true or not, but this type of women might probably will get less attention from the opposite sex and so less opportunity for dates. correct me if i'm being wrong. should i say, every action its consequences. there are price to pay.

so, the next time you found yourself a strong independant woman, dont try to break her down just because she hold herself from you. there are probably lot of things she hide it inside, lock it up not to be seen by others.

instead, embrace her. soften her heart with love.

"who said i cant wear my converse with my dress

well baby thats just me

who i cant be single and have to go out and mingle

baby thats not me"

La La Land

-Demi Lavato-

p/s: i have my guard up high, i've ignore in once. didnt turn out good. i broke my wall just to get myself broken. and it builds my wall higher than before.