MISTAKES: WISH TO TURN BACK TIME

salam...

it has been a few days, perhaps a few weeks since the last time i updated this blog...
the laziness has conquered my thought n my guts i guess.

when you're gone~avril lavigne
"When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day
And make it ok
I miss you"

lips of an angle~hinder
"And I never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel"

have you aver~s club 7
"sometimes it's wrong to walk away, though you think it's over
Knowing there's so much more to say
Suddenly the moment's gone
All your dreams are upside down
If only i could change the way the world goes round"

say ok~vanessa hudgens
"So tell me when it's not alright
When it's not ok
Will you try to make me feel better?
Will you say alright?
Will you say ok?
Will you stick with me through whatever?
Or run away
Say Ok"

never had a dream come true~s club 7
"Somewhere in my memory I’ve lost all sense of time,
And tomorrow can never be cause yesterday is all that fills my mind,
There’s no use looking back, or wondering
How it should be now, or might have been
Oh this I know but still I can’t find ways to let you go"

big girl don't cry~fergie
"And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket
But I've got to get a move on with my life
It's time to be a big girl now
And big girls don't cry"

these are the song in my "now playing" list,playing of course.the songs pretty much show what i feel right now.or maybe it makes me to feel the emotion itself.and it just gets me to one thing,the thing that i've messed up with.

i'm missing the old things.my friends, my time to waste,just everything.
homesick?
maybe...but for sure i'm not missing my family as much as i miss the free time to watch the tv.yup!that's me.
they are right.you never miss the water until it's gone.

it reminds me of two persons who i can say very much care about me.i thought i was making things better,but the fact is i'm not.and that hurts.
and when thinking about the words i had with the other one,it hurts too.
i'm messing up with these people who i never knew i cared.

i want to go back to the time where i'm so naive,don't know anything about life and get those people back.every one.i want every one.just every one.

for those who reads this,i'm sorry if this entry is emotional as it is to me.and i'm sorry if i ever hurt your feeling.if there any chance for me to make it up to you in any way, i'll do.
i guess i never knew how to keep a relation strong.

so if i ever hurt you,i'm sorry.


p/s: wani!!!what ever you're doing right now,best of luck!love you!